Modified bed rest during pregnancy restricts movement, prompting reflections on personal desires and societal norms. The author contrasts her experience with that of Undine Spragg from Edith Wharton's "The Custom of the Country," a character who expresses frustration over losing her autonomy due to pregnancy. Undine's selfishness and anger resonate with the author, illustrating a complex relationship with motherhood while dealing with the frustrations of enforced stillness. Observing others engaging in active lifestyles deepens feelings of isolation and dissatisfaction, highlighting the struggle between personal ambitions and the realities of impending motherhood.
"I watched the video [of the surfing woman], thought, Wow, good for her! Weeks later, on modified bed rest...I thought of the surfing woman again, this time huffily."
"I liked [Undine] because she existed in a time different from my own. Also, she did whatever she wanted."
"But, Undine-dearest-bye and bye you'll feel differently-I know you will! Differently? Differently? When? In a year? It takes a year-a whole year out of life!"
"I admired her unselfconscious anger, her lack of shame. She's mad, dammit!"
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