The "but" is the problem. As the great philosopher Pee-Wee Herman once said, "Everyone I know has a big 'but.'" "It's not about the Barbies. The problem here is guilt," says Eve Rodsky, the author of "Fair Play" and "Find Your Unicorn Space," which is all about making time for creativity and your own passion projects as an adult. " Mother's guilt, and not feeling like you're enough as a parent."
I am apparently too ambitious and goal-driven. Every time I got a promotion, started working on a project or a goal, or achieved something I'm happy about, ex-partners have gotten insecure and then started to humble and belittle me. I used to model, and everything was cool when they thought I'd just be pretty. But when they realize my mind is the most attractive thing about me, they're over it.
I didn't speak up in my first marriage because I didn't think I was supposed to. I think a lot of women, especially those raised to be the good girl, have lived this same script. My upbringing ingrained in me the need to 'follow the rules' and 'don't rock the boat,' leading to a silence that felt expected rather than rebelled against.